Grateful

So, I was having a pity party the other day for really no reason. Literally. I can't think of a reason, I was just in a bummer mood. Do you ever have those days? You have to dig yourself out of a pit all day and you don't even know why you put yourself in there? I think it's partly because my pregnancy is fiddling with my brain now. Lots of hormones going crazy, emotions are heightened, and I get grumpy easily-ESPECIALLY if I'm getting hungry. You don't want to see me hungry.

My brother-in-law was over for dinner that night and I made some complaint about how none of our furniture matches because it's all odds and ends that we inherited when we got married and we're too cheap to buy anything nice right now. Normally this doesn't bother me, but it was a bum day, even minuscule things bother me on bum days. Anyhow, my brother-in-law nicely piped in a story about his friend from Brazil who just got married to a girl in the U.S. and how they are barely scraping by at the moment, etc., etc. Basically a much needed nudge saying, "your apartment is the high life compared to an innumerable amount of people in the world."

I've been thinking about that a lot over the last couple of days and taking mental notes about everything that I have to be grateful for and the list is basically endless. Condensed version: I'm pregnant, I'm in my third trimester, I'm married, Jayce and I are sealed in the temple, Jayce is a hard worker, Jayce and I have the same goals in life, I have a copy of The Family: A Proclamation to the World on my wall, I'm a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, I have a testimony of the Atonement, I live close to campus, I'm taking a stellar class about Joseph Smith right now, my neighbors rock, my in-laws rock, my family rocks, I have jobs, I'm not on bed rest, I live in a generation where staying in touch with old friends is very easy, I'm getting ready to graduate from college, my children are going to have cousins, I'm going to my first of three baby showers tonight, Jayce will be done with the MCAT as of May 7th, etc., etc., etc. Do you see that I could just keep going and going? I didn't even have to pause to think about those things.

Bottom line: Jayce and I are so blessed right now. Will I still probably have bum days? Probably. I am human. Without thinking too hard I could make a list of wants too, but it feels so good to focus on the best parts of life. Now I know what I can draw from on upcoming bum days. See ya later pity party!

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